I'm tired

I'm tired. Tired of all the business of music. Church music. I'm tired have doing it and not getting compensated. A few months ago my home church decided not to pay their musicians who do Worship. It is our livelihood. Playing is how we pay our bills, feed our families and donate to the church., But the powers that be at Bethany Church decided to stop paying the musicians. No one else was told they would not get paid. i was told we were all volunteering to do this. No one talked to me. I was told it was for a few month only. I said fine. Now 6 months later ..no pay. I have no problems playing for free. For the last 6 years I did play with no compensation at churches around So Ca. I went in knowing I was not going to be paid. I was paid at Bethany. They asked me to play and I was going to be paid. Now, they have no money. They still spend money like they do. I love to sit at the piano and ply. Play for my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. That why I play. For Him and only Him.